i really want to find someone to tok to. i felt so terrible today. smsed her but turn out that she has her worries as well. so i shan't bother her. kept to myself.

i worry not only for my promo results, but hols attachments, PW, and worst of all the politics AGAIN. seriously why is this happening again and again? its so damn tiring can. i dont wna be the middleman and clear up mess alrdy. at least when such things happen to shit last time, we can accomodate and solve them almost immediately and i rly dont mind being the middleman back then because at least all of us have mature thinkings. but now, everyone sort of wants their own ways. all of us have different values, different thinkings. its so hard. whats more, i felt as though i am 2 headed snake sowing discord because i try to appease both sides and try to help them put in good words

i rly felt like crying before harmoc today and i was so tired, mentally. i dont even feel like doing anythg today. and we will be getting back results tmr=.=

all the more i feel like giving up when time goes on and on.
and i love my family more and more each day